Should i feel ashamed? or should i not? My english language is really really bad compare to my college friends. I can't even spell properly "INSECT"! Even a 5 years old kid can get that right, and look at me now, 21 and still couldn't get alot of words right.
Sometimes i wonder i should have gone to English school. I got into a Chinese school, friends laughed at me for not understanding Mandarin. Before enrolling into elementary school my mom bought me lots of english story books, my dad do not know how to speak Mandarin, so i communicate with my family in English (but that was 18 years ago). After enrolling to elementary school i feel so ashamed for not understanding Mandarin, and now it's the inverse.
Everytime i make an error in English in public, i'm not sure what am i feeling. Angry, disappointed, upset, sad, humiliated. Not sure if i'm angry with myself for not being good in English or being mad at my friends for laughing at my poor English, or being upset with myself for not writing and reading more. I seriously cannot take this, i'm not sure how am i going to work next time.
So small, i feel so small. why do people always laugh at someone else?
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