Can i make it?

Everyone look pretty excited, 3 more weeks to go and i'm leaving for UK for my final year. I really got a bad feeling about this, although i myself, yes, excited but on the other hand, i questioned myself: Is people going to accept me? What if i did not manage to make any friends? What if i cannot manage my time? 

Honestly, i do regret a little for going to UK. The fear in me is taking over me. Although i've been staying away from home for 3 years, but i still am afraid of loneliness. I'm afraid of everything.

Alot of "but" 's

I really wouldn't think that much when i sketch/doodle, but this time is different. I'm really eager to see, LOVE to see different kind of illustration style, looking at them just makes me happy, but this this i feel a little different. I know shouldn't lock myself up in my own world, we should go out and we learn and we improve. But after seeing people's sketches and drawings (they are really really awesome), i start to have doubts again. My illustration style is really boring, and to be precise, nothing special. I'm not sure anymore, like i said, i wouldn't bother thinking about all these when i draw, but now i do, and it scares me, if i don't see the world, i would not know where i stand, i would improve. ugh! i don't even know what am i thinking anymore.

This isn't the right time to think about all these. Sem break is near, so excited!!! Thailand trip with my classmates and lecturers and i want to learn to sew! 2 more weeks to go, which means, 2 more weeks of hell to go through, i hope i made it through >..< GANBATTE!