Getting Worse

I don't get it, why am i constantly angry whatever my mom say to me? WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME! I'm getting worse every single day! Why can't i change?? i know i'm giving excuses to myself that i cannot change, but i tried really hard to change my temper. I tried, but whatever my mom said for now just pisses me off everytime!

I'm such a bad child :( Might as well don't talk to avoid all these conflicts and arguments, i'm sick and tired of it! I feel like i don't have the energy to continue this.

Walking Volcano

Today, i text my brother told him about my arguments with mom (AGAIN), i was quite shocked when he replied "i hope your temper becomes better after 1 year"

Yes i know, i have a really really really SERIOUS BAD temper, and i felt like i'm not showing my true self to my friends. Seriously, non of my friends ever seen me with bad temper and all the cursing and scoldings before. Well, except for 1 time when i went Thailand trip with my classmates and i exploded right in front of Jing Fong and Yvonne because we actually lost the way. I can tell through their faces "gosh never seen suhan acted like that before" hahaha.

So if i'm not being true to myself.. How do i know if people will like me or not. Like they said, the real friends will stay no matter how rotten i am.

I wish i can, but i'm horrified to show people my true self, it's just like a monster.