Moving On Slowly

Perhaps, perhaps it's true.

If there were reasons of loving someone, and one day the reasons disappeared, will my love change for the person? Maybe, maybe you don't even need a reason to love somebody.

My boyfriend told me today that i acted like a princess. Even though i looked strong, but i still am a princess. And he told me, he told me that he would take care of me.

Even though it doesn't sound as nice as it is, but it's the first time a guy ever see me as a real girl. Since young, i had lots of guy friends, and all of them never threat me as a girl.

I'm glad. At least someone sees me as a girl now.

Bad Dream

Sometimes i wonder why do i only get bad dreams. Is this some kind of punishment for me? People would say, it's only a dream. Even though it's a dream, i still do not like it. People wouldn't know that all these bad dreams definitely affect me a lot. It definitely affects my mood, my attitude, my concentration, and my thinking for the day and it does not feel good at all.

Vision

I was really tired yesterday.

I had a vision of something when i almost black out in the office today. It doesn't mean anything, it's neither a vision of the future nor a scene or illusion or image. But somehow it felt like something from somebody else, someone else's feelings. It's weird but it somehow felt real. 

It felt like that feeling when you first met someone and you get that feeling she/he will change your life forever, but in the end, you feel crushed. Yea, it is like you're feeling happy and having really high hopes and you think she/he changed your life, but it turned out differently. Oh, so heart breaking. Truly heart breaking. 

Who's feeling did i felt it that short moment yesterday then?

Today

The day i realized how childish i was before. Doesn't mean i'm mature now, but definitely stronger than before. I guess this whole new journey really changed me a little. Just a little.

Re:start

Trying really hard to restart again. MOVE MOVE MOVE! DRAW DRAW DRAW! &

FINISH YOUR ASSIGNMENTS

Motivation in every way

I've been in Hertfordshire for 3 months and i feel like i am not productive at all. So what did i do if i did not have any progress in my assignments? GOD, I HAD BEEN SLEEPING FOR 3 MONTHS! This is just too much! I really need some motivation, i need a goal!!! I really need to work my ass off to catch up with my original pace back in Malaysia again!

Today i went for a talk after my tutorial. It's a designer from Brand Union came to share about his experiences and ideas. Pretty amazed! The way they think is really really different. Felt abit relieved when he said "we actually like people who can draw a bit." YES! +1 for doodling motivation!

Some random doodles i did 2 weeks ago, exploring new colour combinations :D love this new combo

*Ice Ice Baby!* Hail rain 2 weeks ago, prettttyyyy.

I felt like i can't motivate people. Especially David. I've been dragging him down instead of motivating him! I'm sorry :( 

For a Friend

I guess i focus on myself too much. I am just too selfish. Always think for myself, blaming myself for everything, and not able to see how much my friends suffer from their problems. I always think that i am the only one who has problems. Guess not.

I failed as a friend, i can't even help a friend! I am not good at giving advice and comfort people. I'm just not good at it. I wish i did not drank 2 bottles and instead help my friend out :( Shit just happen and i just talk without filtering through my brain.