The journey i could not turn back.

I decided to go back to my hometown since i'm a having a long weekend. My parents fetch me and m mom started mentioning about my coursework that i'm facing in college, and i told her how much did i get for my calendar work (and trust me, it was terrible). I did told her that one of my classmate got 72 for that, which is really really high marks (although he finished it quite last minute too). She said that i shouldn't try to hard to finish my work, and i really couldn't stand it because she did not know what's going on for my situation. I started my coursework early so i could finish them in time, yes i do watch a little anime, facebok a little, twitter a little, look at blogs a little, but still, ( i can say) i really do manage my time, but i just had to start early. 

I burst into tears and screamed in the car when i tried to explain to my mom that the "graphic design" element wasn't planted in me. I am not as talented/ creative as my other classmates. Yes, it isn't in me, that's why i take longer time to complete, because i'm trying my best to do it properly because i JUST DO NOT HAVE THE G.D. MIND. I couldn't do anything if i only had one night, and it would probably turn out like crap. For my other classmates, of course, the G.D. element is in them already, of course one night work can beat my whole week effort, which is really unfair (i thought). 

Dad saying that i should have stop graphic design in the 1st place. He just couldn't take it anymore that i scream, and cry for my assignments just like a little kid (crying for nothing). Well, all these crying and screaming leads my parents to think that i, their daughter, is growing backwards. My mind, my thinking is growing backwards, becoming more and more childish. They said i wasn't like that when i was in primary or secondary school. Well, i'm not sure about that, i couldn't recall how was i doing during that time. 

Mom trying to chill me down, saying that my drawing teacher said that i have drawing talent, which makes my blood boil even more because DRAWING and graphic design is hell different thing! (but i know my mom is just trying to calm me down. but i do love drawing so yea.. ) I just couldn't accept the fact that, i cannot do graphic design work as well as my other classmates. 

Good, now is a good time for me to cool down since i'm at my hometown now. I really need a good rest for my mind.