Panic Attack

Here we go again, another group project working on refining our college's corporate identity. I really don't like group work and I'm feeling really stressed out right now, my working pace is really slow and i'm afraid i would drag teh whole group down. WHAT TO DO!

Sad Sunflower

I feel quite disappointed, not sure is it with myself or somebody else. Did not manage to go consultation for my essay yesterday, lecturer said that she has appointment to rush, and she told me on Tuesday that she will be free at 4pm. Great, just great, walked out just to see her and end up couldn't, essay title is not settle yet! ughhhh

Work Hard or Work Smart?

Today i cried in class, i wasn't really satisfy with my stop motion video, knowing that i blew up this opportunity to produce much better work. Been working on my video like crazy for days, i can't feel my eyes anymore, my sleeping time is so messed up right now, my back aching, my whole body feel like dying. I just feel so awful this afternoon. I really am disappointed with myself. I feel like working hard, putting so much effort is just wasted. Not sure should i change to working smart, which i don't know how because i'm not as creative as other of my classmates, i couldn't come out with an idea in such short time.

Well, i feel better after going out for lunch with my classmates after my submission. Went for window shopping, came back, watched my favourite anime, feel much better not thinking about the work that already submitted.

So sleepy right now in the same time i want to draw but still, i want to sleep.

Dozing off

oh dear, it's really killing, to stay up all night, it really kills... don't understand why in the end i still have to rush my assignments, why is my working pace so slow? I NEED SLEEP!

I need sleep

I think i had been saying this countless times, i really really really................... want to sleep! I hate staying up late to rush my assignments =(

Dreams i gave up on

Always wanted to learn how to draw anime characters since high school, always wanted to master it. But i gave up, knowing that i can't really draw them, always leave them hanging half way (only can draw part of it, or complete line drawing but never able to colour them well)

I SHOULD BE DOING MY ASSIGNMENTS RIGHT NOW.

Helpless

I really can't do anything right,can i? I feel so pissed off right now, i hate myself for choosing this essay topic, i can't even start writing for my proposal. What am i to do right now. What should i do? What if i start this and halfway through i cannot find enough source to support my essay and i fail my subject? I CANNOT FAIL THIS TIME! NO WAY. fucking headache.

i really need someone to talk to. I really cannot express what i want to say even i have someone, i feel so trapped, it's so dark, so confused, i cannot talk, i do not know how to express well enough. If i did i can't feel any better either, what am i supposed to do now!!!!!?