Dozing off

oh dear, it's really killing, to stay up all night, it really kills... don't understand why in the end i still have to rush my assignments, why is my working pace so slow? I NEED SLEEP!

Trap

It started out real bad, my first day of study break. All i wanted is some peace and here i am, arguing with my mom about internship all over again. I really fucking hate it, arguing all the time, my mind is really tired, my mind is constantly thinking about alot of stuffs and now i have to deal all these with my mom. I am very tired and i feel so trapped.

I am weird, i can't talk to anyone anymore. I cannot complain that nobody understands me, nobody understands how the way i feel, because i myself did not try to express my words well, i just couldn't. It is so difficult to find the right words to express. I am beginning to distance myself with everyone, i am locking myself away from everyone.

If only i can express myself better, without crying and screaming.

Cycle

I thought i would be more calm here. Again, it happen, arguments everyday, screaming everyday. Sometimes i wonder what is wrong with me, what went wrong, why is my mind so tired everyday.