Try

Okay. Being emo and all doesn't solve anything! I shall try to bring back that happy girl that my parents used to know! =] GANBATTE! yosh!

Self Reminder.

SUHAN! do not look back, i repeat, DO NOT LOOK BACK! It's already been 3 years, it's long enough, you don't need a reason for that, it is over. You are strong enough to move forward, he is not your everything, he does not control you. You are not weird, you are not ugly, you are not stupid, you are fine just the way you are. Don't give up, you can do this!

You have everything here, right here, right now. You have a supportive family, you have friends that make you happy, you have a place to stay, you have enough money for assignments and food, you have everything you need right here. Don't ever look back, don't think so lowly of yourself. There is always people out there who loves you. You will find that person one day.

Now, calm down, put on your headphones and do your assignments.