Where did the smiles go?

Found really really old pictures of me, and i find it funny. Today, dad told me that i wasn't a person like this (too emotional and too sensitive) in the past. He told stories about me when i was still in high school, which i totally cannot recall at all what i did during back then. Well, yea, honestly i wish i did not took a step into all these shit relationships thing, i will not deny that it actually affects me, alot. From a really joyful person into a really negative person i am now.

I know, i know, people will be thinking that how stupid i am to change like this, and thinking why let a small tiny little problem changed me, but seriously, it matters to me. It is like a lesson to me. I wish i could go back to the past, without thinking about any problems.

Trouble

This song describes everything, GOSH! Loving this song!

Untitled yea.....

I really do not have the mood to talk about this, but i thought if i write it down for once and for all, i might recover faster. Yesterday went out with my childhood friend, apparently get to know that why did my ex break up with me few years back, i know i sounds stupid for not letting it go after A FEW YEARS! but still.. i want to know where did it go wrong. okay.. i found out that my ex said that i was having affair with that guy.




what                                     the                                               fuck




fine. fine. I do not want to remember all these and i swear, I SWEAR i do not want to step into any relationship for the next few years. Sick of everything. But now that i know the answer, well, guess i can move on. *thumbs up

end.

Self Reminder.

SUHAN! do not look back, i repeat, DO NOT LOOK BACK! It's already been 3 years, it's long enough, you don't need a reason for that, it is over. You are strong enough to move forward, he is not your everything, he does not control you. You are not weird, you are not ugly, you are not stupid, you are fine just the way you are. Don't give up, you can do this!

You have everything here, right here, right now. You have a supportive family, you have friends that make you happy, you have a place to stay, you have enough money for assignments and food, you have everything you need right here. Don't ever look back, don't think so lowly of yourself. There is always people out there who loves you. You will find that person one day.

Now, calm down, put on your headphones and do your assignments.