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I really do not have the mood to talk about this, but i thought if i write it down for once and for all, i might recover faster. Yesterday went out with my childhood friend, apparently get to know that why did my ex break up with me few years back, i know i sounds stupid for not letting it go after A FEW YEARS! but still.. i want to know where did it go wrong. okay.. i found out that my ex said that i was having affair with that guy.




what                                     the                                               fuck




fine. fine. I do not want to remember all these and i swear, I SWEAR i do not want to step into any relationship for the next few years. Sick of everything. But now that i know the answer, well, guess i can move on. *thumbs up

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Believe it or not

So here goes. It's already 1st of December, gosh! how time flies and finally, my calendar assignment presentation was over! I felt like today's presentation was more like "American Idol" ish. First you got a really strict lecturer who said everything sucks, and then you have the "okayyyyy" lecturer who is actually, fine with everything and suggested a few solutions for you, and lastly, the lecturer that was amazed by almost all the calendars? (though mine was not included). I must say, i can take harsh criticism way better then the previous semesters.

Well, quite a number of people are worried, because there's not much time left. End of the world would probably be a hype for now. I actually did not want the world to end that early, although sometimes i complain how bad my days are, but no, it can't end here, not so soon. Honestly, I still have much that i wanted to achieve.

I still haven't found out what are my strong points, 
i still haven't found my illustration style, 
i still haven't succeed to lose weight, 
i still haven't start to work yet, 
there's still lots of lots of books i haven't get to read, 
i still haven't seen Antarctica yet, 
i still haven't get to repay my parents yet,
i still haven't taste all kinds of food yeeeetttttttt (i just couldn't finish listing everything out)

The World CANNOT end that soon!

And YAY, i bought the Art of Rise of the Guardians, JACK FROST IS JUST TOO AWESOME.
and BOOHOOO, having really bad sore throat right now, weird ring spreading from lips and my gum is just aching really badly, i can't sleep! F

i wish i could be more helpful...

What if you do not have the talent?

Most of the time, people would said that people who studied design, their creativity and skills in design are in their blood. Which later on, i found out that it is not true. I myself, is studying a graphic design course. I do not have the creativity in me. I worked for days just to come out with a solution while a few of my classmates always worked in the last minute, but in the end, the design solution they came out with really beat me to the ground, or should i say, i felt really disappointed? seeing how people can come out with wonderful works in a short time, while i, average is the word to describe my work, sometimes, worse.

Which always leads me to think how unfair could this world be. My parents always tell me nothing is fair. I knew that, it's just hard for me to accept it that i wasn't doing really great in this field. Although i do know that, no matter what i just have to work really hard in order to catch up with my classmates, well, sometimes i just can't stop thinking why is it so unfair. I even doubted myself most of the times, whether am i running the right path, whether am i going to reach my destination one day, or just running in circles.

And yes, i do complain alot. Even my close friends couldn't stand the way i do things, complain all the way while i need to finish my assignments. I just wanted to feel how is it like to create an awesome work =D