guess what

So, you think you can take anything away from me just cause you're more prettier and popular than me aye? oh, guess what!

i. don't. give. a. shit.

i don't believe that looks can control everything, yes, you're cute and interesting and humourous. So? You think i'm gonna copy you just because you won his heart? Let me tell you something.

''you can have him and he's all yours''

You don't have to waste so much effort just to make me jealous. From the start i'd already know that you're better than me. and i'll just stick to being myself. Please stop showing me how great you are, i do not want to be you.

'' ALL THE BEST '' to you >=D

Dear Santa

Dear Santa,

I do not want fancy clothes, i do not want money, i do not want toys, i do not want I pad, i do not want cars and i do not want a boyfriend.

What i wanted for xmas is a hammer so i could hit myself in the head and realize what i did wrong so i could move on with my life =D

Thanks Santa!

Sincerely,

suhan

Beautiful

Does beautiful people always get the things they want? I tried not to think about this everytime, but i feel that they can take everything away from you. =\ i know people would say that, i am jealous of them because they are much better than me or somewhat, but. Try imagining something you work really hard for,you paid so much effort in it, and you're almost reaching your goal and then! suddenly it slip thru your hand just like that, because of people's look. I don't see how or why is this happening to the world now.

YES! I AM JEALOUS OF THEM SOMETIMES but, this is so unfair =<

がんばります ganbarimasu!

No matter how hurt i get, i will always try to be the happy ong su han that everybody sees.

FIGHTING!!!

Life is short..... and cruel

Yesterday i went out for a gathering with my family and relatives. The gathering was okay, everything went well, until i only know that my aunt got lungs cancer,worst, the 4th stage! This is so unexpected because she do not smoke at all, and we did not know how the heck she got it! I mean, all the while she is healthy and okay, but this, this news really struck me.

Only realize that, we really can't foresee our future. What will happen to us, what will we going to be, what awaits us in front. I have no idea. Recently i'd been really doing alot of thinking about why people do not talk to me or even ignore me. Well, screw them, from this day onwards, i do not want to torture myself with stupid worries and thoughts, i do not want to care about how the others think of me, most of all, i want to be happy and stay strong no matter what.

Nothing last forever. I seriously need to appreciate people and things around me from now.

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Seriously, i did not expect this coming, and i really do not want it to happen. It's been so long i've been feeling like this. I actually plan not to post any love related posts in my blog, but....... I could not hold it any longer. The feeling of jealousy, happy over TINY bit of things, feeling super sad when listening to sad sad songs. D= my god, i can't believe this is happening to me, AGAIN! I don't really like this feeling because you will become really really really overly sensitive over small things. and JEALOUSY is a B****.

Ong Su Han, remember, expect less.

Tiring, but worth it.

Today we went to CK's (our lecturer) exhibition ''ULTRAFLAT'' together with Anderson (also our lecturer). Today was kinda dizzy for me. I have car sick since i was young, i used to vomit all over the place when i was going to any trips. I get dizzy easily and started to feel really really uncomfortable and i don't feel like talking or moving. So, yea, today's ride was the worst one ever. Thank god i did not vomit in my friend's car =O We actually spent the whole 2 hours just to find the art gallery. We're going circles and circles and still lost. My friend who's driving the vehicle was really pissed and all of us starting to curse and all that because we met serious jams and we did not know where to go.

And finally, we got really sick of it and decided to ask anyone we see at road sides. Most of them did not know where the gallery is. At last we manage to ask a lady who sell keropok lekor to tell us the way to the destination. THANK YOU MAK CIK(aunty) ! We could have going in circles til night if you did not tell us!

I was so relieved when i got there, and late comers,us storm into the gallery to have a look. All of CK's work is so cool! かっこいです！！Really wish him all the best in his career. =D

YES! The whole day was spent on the road looking for destination, but at least i get to see CK's work, satisfied =]

Check out his work at

http://www.shinkenart.com/home.php

You think you're the only one staying here??! *@#$%

Starting to hate this place.

Fluorescent: What a ''grrreaattt~'' way to start my morning. When i came back from morning walk. my fluorescent light died! WHAT??! It was still working before i went for a walk! I have no choice but to change the starter since i already bought a new one last week. It actually light up but BLINKING, and then it does not light up at all. Pfftt! Great. I have to use my toilet light to complete my assignments tonight until my landlord has time to come and check out the fluorescent. Fine, i still can bare with that.

Trash : What's bugging me off is, THEY DON'T TAKE OUT THE TRASH when it's full although all the rubbish is theirs! Damn it. I used to take out the trash once it's full everytime, but i couldn't stand it so i did not do it now, i have assignments to do, i got my own thing to catch up. Why do you people don't do it? Most of you are GUYS right? Seriously, you guys do not have any responsibility. DO I HAVE TO TAKE OUT THE TRASH FOR YOU ALL THE TIME? I AM NOT YOUR MAID YOU KNOW?!

Laundry : One more thing, your laundry take one week to dry? Do you even realize that your laundry is hanging outside for 1-2 weeks??? You occupied space to dry the laundry, do you have any idea how much i complied my dirty clothes for that whole week? I had to wash and dry them in my toilet, and this seriously pissed me off.

I do not know how to make you guys realize that you and your '' i don't care '' attitude. You guys just think only for YOURSELF!

I seriously hated the life here.

'' I Just Woke Up ''

WOW! my 1st post on new blog. I didn't expect to create another new blog again (dump my old blog which i created it few years back ago) Well, i realized that, i need somewhere to express my thoughts and feelings. I do not want to throw out everything on facebook anymore, it kinda annoying for people and for myself too =\ I'm not the kind of person who will write posts everyday (i'm too lazy huhuhu~) but at least this blog, it's like my new digital diary =]

Today's expression : GGAAAHHHH~ ASSIGNMENTS!